So at the moment it looks as if I'm becoming active on DA again. Which that pleases me a great deal. I've missed my DA friends and the DA community. So much has happened in the last year that has affected a large portion of my life. Aside from that being military doesn't really give you too much free time to work with either. Here's a catch up on my life.

So, I guess starting from the end of Basic Training and the beginning of my Intel school to the time I reclassified into Satellite Communications. When I first got to Goodfellow it was a hard adjust. I've spent my whole life in large areas with stores and people all over. Goodfellow was out there. I mean you would be speeding in a 70 MPH zone and it would still take 45 minutes to get to Walmart. The closest city was farther than that. During my time there I worked on Intel stuff of coarse, took some college classes to try and inch my way closer to my programming degree, and worked long days with little sleep at night. A typical work week was Monday through Friday from 2:30AM till at least 6PM. If you had laundry or needed to study at school (which if you wanted to pass you lived at the school) it was at least 10PM before you got to bed excluding taking a shower and whatnot. Probably one of the biggest events that happened at Goodfellow was my girlfriend broke up with me after several years of being practically inseparable. With "friends" still open I dragged on with my hectic schedule. Eventually I couldn't keep up with my ambitions between the stress of the work place, stress of the Military Leaders in the dorms, and trying to keep up with college. I dropped my classes and focused solely on Intel. I was suffering silently between the tear in my personal life and the misery of my work life. After much stress and over 6 months in school as an Intel student I became eliminated from the 1N0 course. Set for reclassification, I began the process.

I ended up with my current job, Satellite Communications, which I didn't study. Passed with stress only from military leaders in the dorms at Keesler. I could live with that. Christmas rolled around and I came home to visit. So excited that I would be able to see my friends, family, and happy too see that old girlfriend. Christmas went well, I saw just about everyone I wanted to. Didn't get to see people out of state. The first visit to her house was one of those awkward silence times. New years was much better. But as always all good things must end. I went back to Keesler to wait another 3 months for them to fix my orders so that I could go to the second school for my job.

Finally at Ft. Gordon! I had so many run-ins with the Military Leaders there. Small things that were permitted at other bases no longer allowed. Like letting your phone charge when your at school so when you went out in the evening your phone would have battery life. Anyways, after a boring but easy stay at Ft. Gordon. I passed. Nothing failed again. Goodfellow taught awesome study habits and definitely provided the will power to push yourself through reading the most boring of school work.

After all that school, it was then June. A year and 3 months since my original departure from my home town of Jacksonville, NC. I went back home for about 9 days. I spent it with Jessi, Erika, and though I tried to get up with my ex it was unsuccessful. My last night there, I stopped by to say good bye to a family that I started with as unliked. After a couple years of being close friends to their daughter they eventually warmed up to me. I'd easily consider them my family if things didn't go sour over the next few days.

The next days I began my drive across country to Idaho. A good 3000+ miles away. To mess with Erika and my ex along with earn some money on that "Own your friends" shit on Myspace I bought my ex from Erika. The ex put that she was miserable toward me in the status. I messaged her best friends to see if something was bothering her. Not long after that the ex got online and became confrontational. That whole "What's your problem, You're my problem" BS. She pretty much said that when we broke up that she wanted me out of her life. Of coarse, after some of this and tired of drama crap, I snapped and said shit I didn't mean. Pretty much accused her of how I felt for a while now. I said that since her dad approves of me now, she can't get attention that her life sucks at home. So it's time for her to move on to the next guy daddy wont approve of. It was a dick move, I wasn't thinking clear, and I was pissed that by "Let's be friends" she really just wanted me gone.

Since then, I've broken ties with one of my best female friends and support, with the only people I really only called family, and lastly with the ex. I'm sure she's "happy" She's told her self that since I've met her. You can see in her eyes when she is or isn't. All I can do is wish her the best and continue on with my life. Thank her for the experiences that pushed me to not only push myself to do better, but help other people. Thank you for that.

A month later, ish, I'm still in training. I have my education and career plan. I'm in extra activities. I'm even working on becoming an advocate for rape victims and doing training with cops. When I have free time in those activities I still sit on the computer. Work on programming and chatting with friends. Weekends are like typical college parties. You don't remember anything from Thursday till Monday and you feel like shit till Friday so that you can do it again.

I know that this is a long journal. But in my time in service I've left so much out. I know that I covered some of this in other journals but to eliminate confusion I included with all the details I could remember. Anyways, I'll post some deviations and keep my journal up to date with my life. At least do a better job at it. Promise.

Take care everyone,
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